I seem to keep updating fewer and fewer times. Not because I don't have things to say, but because I keep having what Mom calls "Senior Moments" and forget to write them down. Maybe I'll start carrying a notebook to write things down in. :) So what's been going on with me?
I'm realizing that if I want to get out of my current job in the next twenty some odd years, I need to either get certification or a new education. I've decided to to pursue my mcse and A+ certification as well as an online degree. I'm currently going to DeVry for network systems administration and hope to be done in a reasonable time. However I haven't heard good things about DeVry's reputation in the workforce, so we'll see how it goes. Although thanks to the online classes, I was able (read rationalized buying) to purchase a snazzy new netbook with mobile broadband. Certainly makes getting homework done. And in a completely unrelated topic, Jeni's Ice Cream is on food network and I totally want some now. Seriously, if you live in the Columbus area or it's sold near you, you must try it. :) http://jenisicecreams.com/
Seriously. Best. Ice Cream. Ever.
Anyhoo, work is going ok and classes are good even if I feel like I'm not learning a whole lot. I am however, feeling like I'm in a good place in my life, even if I can't properly budget. :)
I have found however that I watch far too much cooking channel and food network for my own good. It makes me hungry and I end up cooking far too much. Not to mention what it does to my weight watchers' points! :P D
HBO has been putting out too many fun looking series and I might have to get it. I am very excited that they're making a mini series out of R. R Martin's a Song of Ice and Fire. Seriously I was geeking out at work trying to find trailers and info. I worry however that my expectations will be set to high and I'll be disappointed. There's also a prohibition era series that looks really good as well.
Lately I've been thinking about how I define myself. When I started exploring kink, I thought I was submissive, even though I didn't have any experience to base my decision off of. I'd had submissive dreams, fantasies, and the like but hadn't found the right person to explore them with. Fast forward to COPE 2008, where I met my current boyfriend/bottom. Even though I mostly hung out on the sidelines watching, it was an awesome experience that I'm glad I had. Through
playing with d, I've learned that while I enjoy the sensation of being a bottom in a scene, for me to submit takes a very special type of person. I've also learned that Topping is fun. Really, really fun. I love the way that d can get all squishy and blissed out looking and knowing that I put him there. That he trusts me enough to let me take him to that place and to know when he's had enough. I'm not feeling particularly Dominant or submissive, but somewhere in between and drawn to both. Though to be fair, I haven't had a lot of experience on the receiving end of things. I've recently asked someone if they'd be willing to point me in the direction of good people who mentor, and I'm looking forward to talking to her this weekend.
Speaking of this weekend, it's COPE. I'm so freaking excited I can't wait 'til the weekend! :) I have a tentative playdate set up, but we're planning to meet sometime on Friday to get a feel for each other/negotiate. We've also got a playdate set up to learn/play with electric play and I get to poke d with shocky things! Sounds like fun, not to mention Mollena is going to be presenting and I might have to work at not being a fangirl. :p I'm actually mostly packed and it's only Thursday. Yay!